I had a chat with Angela yesterday, and it really re-set my thinking.

A levels are around the corner and everyone around seem so pessimistic and glum. This has affected me greatly as i haven’t been one of a positive thinker. It created self-doubt, leading to doubting that God has a plan for me! It has indirectly caused my faith to waver, which i had not realised until now.

Angela set me straight. Even if i didn’t have faith in myself, i should have faith in God. Afterall, God IS the one controlling this whole world… Friday night service tonight mentions about the Plead of Faith that Moves Jesus Christ, which was pretty apt. The sermon mentions a few great examples that i could emulate. First, was the Canaanite woman who was “dissed” by Jesus Christ, Who was really just testing her faith. Second, it was the centurion, though of such high authority, regarded Jesus Christ as much higher than he, that he is not worthy to even face Him, sending his friends to say that there was need to come to the house for he is not worthy, just say and his servant will be healed. Third, was Mary who honoured Jesus by pouring perfume on his leg, kissed his feet and wiped it with her hair. All these are actions of faith, faith that can save my soul.

As such, i should not doubt God’s plan for me and place my complete faith in Him. Yes, no doubt it’s going to be tough. But Angela quoted from Confucius, “Our greatest glory is not in never failing but in rising everytime we fall,” so i’m going to pick myself back up everytime i fall, besides, i’ve got God to cushion me. May He be yoked with me, and carry my burden together, that He may guide me.

Other than that, i must recognise that what i want does not matter, but it is the will of God that really matters. As psalm 127:1 mentions that the watchman watched in vain

“Unless the Lord builds the house,

they labor in vain who build it.

Unless the Lord guards the city,

the watchman stays awake in vain.”

Indeed, whatever i do, there should be an element of God, becuase He’s the very basis of everything i do or say. Even if i don’t trust myself, i must trust in God’s perfect plan for me :)